Where are you tonite I wonder. Are you happy? Are you trying to be well again and stay away from drugs? Do you miss us? Me? Yourself? Do you think about the baby that's on the way? Do you understand why I left? Why I had to leave? I wonder is there hope for us somewhere down the road. I sappose theres always hope.  Do you know, really know, just how much you are loved and missed?

Jeremy, I'm putting all of this, everything into God's Hands. I can't, we can't, but HE CAN. I know it may seem as though I've given up on you, on us. But I haven't. My leaving was truly the beginning of my fight for you, the REAL you. I hope that you can understand that. If it is God's Will, then it will happen for us, not in our time, but His. And I am willing to accept that. Whatever God wants for us, is what I want too.

Prayers for you tonight, and everynight...

Love,

PJ

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I'm getting really excited about the new baby comming!

It's making everything feel brand new again! And though I'm feeling a little sad (and abandoned) by leaving Jeremy, the gift that awaits me and the boys overshadows all! It's been good for the soul, the changes I've made. And I have peace about leaving, so I know it was the right thing to do!  

 

 IT FEELS LIKE SPRINGTIME IN WINTER ROUND' HERE!!!!!!!!!!! Be Blessed All, PJ

JEREMY:


I think I'm getting better. Because I'm not happy that you're sad. I miss you. Not who you are right now, but who you used to be, who you really are.

I pray that you quit hanging out in places like this, smoking yourself to death. I want you to feel the joy of raising your baby boy, who will be here in a few weeks.

It kills me inside to know that you are hurting. But we can't follow you.

I hope that someday you will heal, and find happiness in the simple things you used to love. Like watching the boys play.

And woofing down a big greasy burger, or two!

And watching the Seasons change.

I want you to find all of these things again. But I can't find them for you. You have to use your own eyes, your own heart. Then and only then can we share them.

Be Blessed All,
PJ

Eddie and the boys are headed to The Rock And Roll Hall Of Fame! God, I used to love this band! I remember sitting around as a teenager listening to Van Halen 2 over and over again while playing quarters and shooting beer bongs!

And taking THE WRONG bus to the 1984 concert, and winding up at The City Zoo of all places!!!!


Me and my friend hitched a ride though, and made it to the concert just in time for me to throw-up all over my new concert T-shirt!

GO EDDIE!

Be Blessed All,
PJ

Hope everyone had a safe and happy Halloween!      

While going through the boys candy last night, I     

I found myself wondering what happened to all of   

the cool candy I got as a kid? I sappose it's been     

replaced with the newer, bigger, and (ahem) better   

versions of this new millenium? Well, I for one         

haven't forgotten the 70's! Remember all of the fun   

candies we used to get?

Be Blessed All,

PJ